Forced exposure

Gone fishin'

Saturday night special beat service

The bad news. When I called my dealer to score a gram of blow, he informed me that he was out of the coke game for the foreseeable future. Fuck.

But being a dedicated fiend, I have more than one dealer. I was able to hook up with my back up guy tonight and cop what he calls ‘a 16th’. I’m chopping it up now.

I haven’t gotten coke from this dude in a while, but I remember it as being pretty hit or miss.

OK, just did a line. Pretty harsh, compared to what I’m used to these days.

This shit has a weird smell to it. Kind of smells like olives. Hmm.

Well I feel pretty good. Maybe this is a good score.

Just did third line.

Other than this weird olive smell, it seems like pretty good cocaine.

OK yeah shit this coke is fucking serious. Whoa.

This should definitely do the trick for my little vacation next weekend. Oh yes.

I just hope the fat girl is down to party for real. I’d really rather not have to ring up some dirty street whore to serve as my cum receptacle. I’m hoping that it will be a female that I know who will be interacting with my penis next weekend.

Roger that

Look, you can lick my asshole all day. Shove your tongue deep in my sphincter and toss that salad like you work at the Olive Garden. I’ll love every minute of it.

But know that my asshole will be squeaky clean. It will smell faintly of soap, if anything other than washed skin. Because I am not down with anything scat. It’s just nasty. We are the clean people. CleanCleanClean. Everything smells nice and feels supple. That’s just how we roll. Pussy juice? You betcha. Sperm? All day baby. Believe that.

Otherwise, we keep it so fresh and so clean. No STDs of any kind, ever. And we’re keeping it that way. Join our club, sexy.

I am the perfect amount of drunk right now. I had what, four cocktails? And not just any garden variety, industry standard jack and coke bullshit. I’m talking about the finest fucking cocktails Los Angeles has to offer. You don’t even know, mother fucker.

OK, shit. It’s late, I’m drunk and there’s a TV commercial for Absolut vodka that uses a faithful cover of New Order’s “Ceremony” as the music. I love that song so much. The original, anyway. Do I feel all self-righteous and superior to the cover version in the commercial? Nah. It reminds me of how awesome the original is, and I’m gonna dial it up in my iTunes right now. Mission accomplished.

You need to listen to Digable Planets. The album is called “Blowout Comb.” It’s on my list of the 50 greatest albums ever recorded. They talk about “Creamy Spies.” Creamy spies are real, OK? They just are.

My friend wants to start a porn star fantasy camp. I think it’s a great idea. I already know the girls I’d recruit for it: Julie Night, Hillary Scott, Vanessa Lan, Tera Lynn Fox, Lisa Sparxxx, Aaralyn Barra, Julia Bond, Lisa Marie, Whitney Stevens, Whitney’s sister Britney Stevens and Missy Monroe are just some of the first slatterns I would contact to be a part of it.

And being one of the event organizers, I’d be able to do all sorts of disgusting things with these professional whores, which is the whole point. Suck it, bitch. That’s right, take the whole thing down your throat and just hold it there while tears run down your face. Lick my balls while you’re at it, whore. Yeah, like that.

My perfect girl? Today, Amanda Blank. She’s sweet, tender and knows how to get nasty when it’s time to get nasty. And that long, lean body with the fat pussy and bubble booty? On a white girl? I’d marry that girl tomorrow, treat her like the queen she is and fuck her like the whore she knows how to be.

Even though it’s after midnight, I said fuck it and did a bump of coke. Life is short. Blow me. No, really. Blow me.

Almost...

Today was a really good day.

Ended up asleep on my couch by 8P.

Went out to dinner with the ex. It was cool.

When she got home she asked me why I didn't invite her inside.

Honestly, I feel like it's just not quite seasoned yet. Tonight was not that night. I mean it's coming, but this just wasn't it.

Ended up blowing a few lines and drinking on some vodka.

Did some trolling on Craigslist. I found a big black chick that's giving blowjobs in a hotel off the Imperial Highway for $50. I'm still kind of considering checking her out, but I not gonna.

I also checked back in with another whore I found on CL a few months ago and never hooked up with. She sucks cock for $40 and is based pretty close to where I live. She's still down for the program, which is always good to know.

There's a special thrill that comes from paying for sexytime services. Not that I'm an expert, mind you.

I think I just like knowing that the option is there.

Man, my tolerance for blow is getting pretty high. I go through the party powder even faster than grass these days.

Sasha is the best kind of nasty

Totally jerking off to this right now. But THIS is what's really fucking me up. Slut was made for cocaine.

Bukkake Monday

Man, that was a long one.

On the way home I called one of my marijuana dealers. He brought me an eighth of Bubba Kush that is sooo delicious. Got really stoned and took a quick nap.

Woke up, did some lines and dialed up Eskimo Tube. Found a bunch of nasty clips from "The Bang Van" series that really did the trick. Great group footage in a moving RV, with filthy girls sucking down beers and cocks. It was an incredibly relaxing bit of masturbation.

Julie Night is one down and dirty fuck-pig that gets me off. Her scene in "Bakers Dozen #2" with Missy Monroe and some other cock-sucker sucking off a whole bunch of dicks is a really hottt scene.

More "Bakers Dozen" heat, this time starring UK slut Alicia Rhodes.

But holy shit this slattern Melissa Julianna is amaaaazing. She sucks the cum out of well over a dozen dicks, each time spitting the mouthful into a cup. She made me cum in a major way.

Where can I find a whore like that?

Ex-gf called tonight. We made a date for the weekend. Over the course of the convo I found a way to piss her off. I always do. It's so fucking annoying. Whatever happened to women that aren't so g-d touchy? It's probably why we're not together anymore. It's like every little thing is so serious and offends her. Lame.

I think she kind of gets off on it. I remember we were having this one argument about sex. Somewhere in there she mentioned that if she wanted to get off she could always have sex with someone that doesn't like her very much. How fucked up is that? Maybe she wants me to be more abusive. The times when I would really pound her always seemed to really excite her.

I guess we'll find out this weekend.

Ideas for the 4th of July

Just fucking high

Snorted some lines earlier. Switched to Newcastle ale and weed. A lot of weed. So high right now. Thinking about what kind of trouble I can get into this weekend.

There is the WET pool party happening at the Custom Hotel in Culver City for the 4th of July. I used to go to WET parties when they were at the Roosevelt Hotel. Those were some crazy-ass parties. My (now ex) girlfriend and I would get a room, where we'd go to blow lines and fuck throughout the day. Awesome. Hang out by the pool, she'd swim for a while, we'd suck down a bunch of drinks. Then we'd hit the room, hoover up a few rails and I'd fuck her really hard doggystyle standing up, not even taking off her bikini bottoms but just pulling them to the side. I wouldn't cum, though. That was the thing. We'd see how many times we could do it over the course of the day (and night). Just get all tweaked the fuck out. I remember one night I was so high I wandered out of our room and towards the pool area, totally naked. Thankfully the party was over and mostly clear (and that my ex found my ass and dragged me back into the room). Those were the fucking days. Literally. My cock is throbbing just thinking about it.


I'm thinking about getting a room at the Custom this weekend. A couple of grams of blow. See what happens. Maybe I can coax some drunk slattern from the pool into my room for some coke and my cock. That would be a lot of fun. Plus I'm sure I'll run into some ghosts from my past.
That's kind of a given.

But if there are any particularly nasty coke whores out there looking to get freaky for the 4th, holler at y\r boy. I will brang the caine and the cock. You bring the dirty mind, open mouth and open legs. Bring that shit!

12:09 is when I tried not to care

There's a moment during the "behind the scenes" sequence of Orgy World 10.

Victoria Lan is laying back on the arm of a big red couch. There is a tall black guy fucking her while squeezing her neck. She's moaning loudly. He leans into her for a few more before unceremoniously getting up off her and walking away. Another dude walks right up and starts fucking her. Sadly, the camera cuts away right as the second guy starts to rail her.

There's something about her complete abandon in that moment that touches me way down in the marrow of my libido. She could give a fuck who sees her just kicked back on a couch getting cocked by one black dick after another, and loving every slightly hostile thrust. I dream of (and completely fear) having such a moment.

"There's something about a line of girls on their knees all ready to suck whatever cock you put in front of them. It changes a person."

Some of the nastiest shit I’ve ever done

I went to a birthday party tonight. But that’s irrelevant.

I met a drunk woman with killer tits that I talked to for a moment.

But she had eyes for another.

I went to the bathroom twice to do bumps of blow.

Left the party around midnight, really horny.

I got home and hit Craig’s List hard. I just started contacting these filthy slattern's under the "adult services" section until I hit pay-dirt.

A black chick hit me back. She would suck me off on the roof of a local Ralph’s supermarket for $80.

I drove to the Ralph’s and went inside. I got $80 from the ATM.

I got back in my car and cruised up to the rooftop parking structure.

There was a car like the chick described in her message. We parked next to each other at the back of the parking lot.

She got out of her car and approached mine.

Mid-20s, heavy-set black female. Wearing jeans and a plain t-shirt. Kind of tall, like 5-10. If you saw her on the street, you might actually give her a second look. She was kind of chunky, but nice brown skin and a pretty face.

She was kind of shy but very friendly and nice. I told her I wasn’t sure what to do. So she said to just help her out. So I pulled out my cock and she leaned over and started sucking it.

I reached under her t-shirt to grope on her fat titty. It was a nice one, with a thick pencil-eraser nipple on it.

She sucked me good for a couple of minutes. It was all very surreal. I’m in my car on the roof of a fucking Ralph’s, and this strange black bitch is sucking on my dick.

She stopped blowing me and started stroking. I told her to get back on it so I could blow in her mouth. She said there was no way I was cumming in her mouth. So I told her to just stroke it for me. A couple of minutes later I shot a big, goopy load all over her hand. She kind of laughed.

I gave her a paper towel to wipe her hand off. I asked if that was $80. She said yes. I handed her 4 twenty-dollar bills. She got out of the car and walked back towards her ride. I drove home and whacked off again to a video of a skinny white chick jerking off a really fat black guy’s nasty dick.

That was my Saturday night/Sunday morning. Oh look, it's the first day of summer. Off to an appropriately slutty start...

Last night’s cum shot: I gots some work to do

I didn’t post about last night’s blast-off, as I was studying a couple of new DVDs that showed up in the post yesterday.

Last week I discovered that Sensational Video sells their DVDs online for next to nothing. We’re talking brand new discs for as a low as 99 cents. And not just crappy, really old ones either.

Last week I ordered Big Black Dicks Dirty White Tricks 2 and All Amateur Video #34: Gangbangs Galore. The first one cost me a single buck, the latter was a whopping two. With shipping, the whole package was barely $10.

These tapes are nasty—and in the best way possible.

Let’s start with Big Black Dicks Dirty White Tricks 2. This DVD is pretty straightforward. Skanky, kind of regular looking white sluts getting banged by big-ass black dudes.

There are four scenes, each one pretty hot. I’m especially partial to a scene with “Friday.”

This whore has massive fake tits, and boy, does she ever get fucked by homeboy. Dude is big, with kind of a bear-belly, bald head and thick cock. These two get so into it, there are sequences where I swear they forget there’s even a camera there.

The guy is fucking Friday like she’s the love of his life. He “sets up shop” as I like to say in different positions and let’s her have for these long, drawn-out stretches.

She’s loving it, and comes twice. He eventually pumps her like crazy on the floor before oozing a chunky load down her face and tits.

There's another great clip of this black dude that looks to be in his mid-40s fucking this cute little blond with short hair called "Sunset Rivers." The best sequence is when he's reaming her like dog on the couch, and after and while she's like, "No, no, hold on."

The guy just looks at her and says, "Oh, yes, yes," and rams her for another good ten minutes before demanding that she "Come here" (he has to tell her twice) so he can shoot on her face.

That’s kind of the M.O. on this DVD. These give their girls some of the most thorough fucking I’ve ever seen in porn. Just real grimy, all up in that sweetness, behind-the-barn old-school boning.

These guys are my new fuck heroes, and there isn't a bad scene in the bunch.

As for last night’s cum shot, oh man. All Amateur Video #34: Gangbangs Galore is one of the weirdest DVDs I’ve ever watched. I’ll get into more detail later, but watching this skinny little skank that goes by “Candy” catch three loads in the face (including one that goes straight into her mouth, and another that rips straight up her nose I swear it is so fucking sick it’s hot). I spewed rather easily to that nonsense.

Since it's Friday, I'm blowing a bunch of lines and reviewing what I watched last night. So nice.

Compulsion

This is a compulsion. The deep, dark debauched sex fiend that lives inside of me is coming out more and more. Usually he comes out to play whenever I score a bag of cocaine and start doing lines by myself in the living room. After I get pretty high, it's not long before I'm scouring the free internet porn sites for good gangbang and bukkake clips.

My favorite little porn piggie of the moment is one Cody Lane. This is her looking so deliciously fuckable. The very definition of Dirty White Snow Bunny. Oh, to do a massive rail off one of her fat-ass tits... these are the things that my very dirty dreams are made of right now.

I'm hoping that by indulging these compulsions (hence this pile of bile that I'm calling a blog) I can maybe work through them and put them behind me. Finally.

I mean, I have spent a better portion of today blowing rails here in the aforementioned living room. But it was just one of those days. I had to release a little pressure, and I have yet to muster the courage to actually hook up with any of these skanks I find trolling Craig's List late at night. More about that nonsense later as well.